To people on the outside looking in, getting told to eat & gain weight sounds like a great problem to have. But when you’re in the depths of your struggle with Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, it can feel like your world is crashing down all around you. But learning how to cope with gaining weight during your HA recovery is vital to staying focused and pressing forward.
To so many women struggling with HA, your weight is a direct correlation to your worth. So in your mind, gaining weight = less worth.
My dear friend, this is so so false.
Your weight does NOT define you or your worth. It doesn’t make people love you more when you’re a size 2 vs. a size 8. I know the thought of going beyond a weight you have set in your mind as the highest weight you will ever allow yourself to weigh, is scary. I get it. I’ve been there far too many times.
Ask yourself this…what more will you gain when you allow yourself to gain above your comfort zone?
More time to enjoy the beauty of life…
Being on the other side it’s easy for me to see this now, I know.
But trust me when I say, allowing yourself to gain the weight will bring SO much more to your life than you could have ever imagined. I wish so badly you could feel what I feel in my heart when I think about the joy that is to come when you truly let go.
Here are some ways I got over the fear and allowed myself to give in:
- Talk to those you love, share with them this new journey and what changes are going to take place. Not only will this free you from wondering if they’re noticing, but it will give you the accountability & support you need.
- Ditch your old clothes. Buy yourself pieces that make you feel good in your new body. It’s not about the size on the tag, but how they make you feel when you look in the mirror. Wearing clothes that fit well does wonders for your confidence!
- Get rid of the scale. The scale is NOT your friend. Trust that what you are doing is exactly what you need to be doing. Not every day will be easy and you may wonder: When will it end? The weight may come on quickly in the beginning, but I can assure you it will taper down and eventually stop if you’re eating good quality food.
I hope these suggestions help. I know this is hard and you may not be ready to fully let go. That’s ok, give yourself some grace…I have faith that when you are ready you are going to do amazing!